When I look to light meaning the good I just pull on a hood and hide myself... I know that its not good to be alone and hold up so much negative in one mind and body, but thats what I do is hold so much negative in me like anger, rage, fear, regrete, pain ,sarrow, and hate... I hate these feelings but these are the only things I could feel. Happiness, gratitude, love an what not I hardly feel everytime someone smiles at me I dont show a smile unless I have to fake it to not to be noticebul... so for me I just pull on a hood hidding as I walk through light with out speaking or looking at anyone just look down and dont let anyone get in your way just keep walking no matter how dark your soul is or gets... thats what I tell myself, if anyone says ill help you or whatever ill have to say no to them... walk away and live the life im cursed with... some things that people tell me ill just look away and make sure they wont ever see me or remember me... Dark Poisoned feelings spread inside me, slowly causing pain, as if it really matters to anyone... This Is Just How I Was Made And What Life I Have To Live.... there is just no where to run or no where to hide just keep moving... This Is Just The Same Old Story Of One Who Falls In The Pit Of Nothingness...
Was It Worth It In The End For All Of This?
Was It Worth It In The End For All Of This?
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