Trapped In A Broken World

Everyday that my lfie goe sby everything changes but i sit still stuck in teh shadows chains holding me down I try to break free but my sould is no bound by it no able to escape. No mattter how much i call out no one will ever come. No matter how much I smile its always sad but oh well right thats the price I've paid bounded Till the Day I Was born Till the Day I Die... and iill take a heavy burden on my soul as a judgment of price to pay till the end... And I am already paying that price...

A Poisoned Soul

Every freaking day i have good days always turn bad and i really hate it because every dam day its always negative and i don't know how long ill be able to hold in so much anger and rage because inside i have a hateful monster who hates life and people who i could care less about not afraid of ending their pathetic lives, why because the are the reason i hold so much negative in me and why because after spending years alone in this hateful world i come to see it that negative can be put to use against others... that's who i am... A Heartless Nobody with a poisoned soul....

The Darkest Soul Who Walks Through Light...

When I look to light meaning the good I just pull on a hood and hide myself... I know that its not good to be alone and hold up so much negative in one mind and body, but thats what I do is hold so much negative in me like anger, rage, fear, regrete, pain ,sarrow, and hate... I hate these feelings but these are the only things I could feel. Happiness, gratitude, love an what not I hardly feel everytime someone smiles at me I dont show a smile unless I have to fake it to not to be noticebul... so for me I just pull on a hood hidding as I walk through light with out speaking or looking at anyone just look down and dont let anyone get in your way just keep walking no matter how dark your soul is or gets... thats what I tell myself, if anyone says ill help you or whatever ill have to say no to them... walk away and live the life im cursed with... some things that people tell me ill just look away and make sure they wont ever see me or remember me... Dark Poisoned feelings spread inside me, slowly causing pain, as if it really matters to anyone... This Is Just How I Was Made And What Life I Have To Live....  there is just no where to run or no where to hide just keep moving... This Is Just The Same Old Story Of One Who Falls In The Pit Of Nothingness...

Was It Worth It In The End For All Of This?

A Unquestionable Life?

I don't know why but everyday I space out when i look into the sky during day times and night and it questions me even who am I? why do I space out? why am I even here? what is my reason of being here? or what do i do? its so confussing when i try to think alot of times but I get no answers even though im suppose to do all the answering but at least someone can tell me some answers cause when I think alot it just bothers me to do or to not do alot of times and I get headaches from all the things that I lock up in my head and of course what do I do is just sleep or lay there lost in space or in my own thoughts as time fly bys and of course thats what comes from "A Unquestionable Life" why can't I just go some place where I can think clearer...

Unkown World

In the world we all live in others are good and other are evil or bad and there are others who never decide to choose those sides cause its just a stupid fight between 2 things. Others how ever do both because no matter how bad there is good and how good you are there is bad and that's how others work for it but for some they don't care they fight to protect or to live on cause fighting is the only thing they could grasp if other disagree or don't like it that's fine but trust me on this that there are others who don't give a dam about good or bad they just care about living or protecting. I wish that this world would just keep one instead of 2 but i rather stay with good if there were to be just one but sence this is a just another mindless game for other people im not going to choose between good and evil cause its just another 2 battles and war but like we or ive said this is just another Unknown World for other people who are born into this world that grasps on to what they call HOPE. I know its kind of foolish of me but i agree with both if there werent good or bad then there wouldnt be nothing to fight for for our future to decide the good or bad but i hope it can be good there for ill be able to see my true and only goal that i well grasp on. So for those who dont want to get involved in this senceless battle or mindless game or a fight for our hope just stay back or come and get involved and fight for our lifes work. If none of this dosnt make sence then im sorry but for other is does.

The Darkest Hour On The Darkest Night

Every hour at night is my darkest feelings but in mornings is another story but every darkest hour I feel when I walk outside and on nights when I see the full moon my darkest fears or darkest thoughts or feelings began to cause my pain or ease it I don't know why but that's just what happens some people say its just me but i doubt it why cause every full moon or change in the new moon I tend to go out side and feel strange I always ask my self so many questions that can never be answered... I know its not a good feeling or thing but mostly its brings me deep feelings that casue em sadness which leads to depression and of course when I listen to music it seems sad but its what calms me sometimes and My Darkest Hour fears me cause I tend to lsoe control of my anger and I dont know if all of this is making sence on this post but im just getting the same feeling from last night cause every night something happens that leads to the Darkest Hour....